Ode to Subbie

The afternoon sun started to sink behind the trees and the wind rustled the coloring leaves. I took in the turn of seasons and thought how perfect it would be to go into the woods today. Instead I swiveled left to right and right to left in a faux leather chair as my fingers pressed print marks on to the polished glass covering the laminate conference table. I waited for a financial planner who would assess my capacity to live without a real job – one of those employment situations with insurance and w-2’s. He joined me dressed in the obligatory consultant attire of grey suite, white dress shirt, and blue tie and after pleasantries began the questioning. He did not have a drill Sargent or interrogating lawyer approach, but rather a quiet and unassuming demeanor. The inquiries seemed reasonable, almost rote: What was my monthly income to expense ratio? Did I have any foreseeable changes in my near future, like getting married, inheriting a big estate, or a move to a foreign land? His questions were met with an easy response. Then he asked: How many more cars will you buy in your life time?

My eyes widened as my brain slammed on the breaks. How many more cars would I buy? I felt a swift slap of reality: life is finite and so is your car-buying future. The question also drove home the reality that my finite life continues to shorten. Continue reading


Flâneur your way home

IMG_2405To get lost is one of the virtues of travel. In Florence, La Spezia and Milan, Italy, I circled, lapped and swept along alleys, piazzas and bustling cobblestone streets. I would say I was lost most all of the time, but to be lost would mean I had a destination. Save the desire to make it to the obligatory tourist sites and back to the train station, I was free to wander or to flâneur as was the way of the 19th century French pedestrians. Does not flâneur  sound far more sophisticated than wander? To flâneur I turn off the Google Map and follow the compass of my intuition. Continue reading

On the Milk Run through Alaska

IMG_3942The weight of my duffle bag tips the scale at the Alaskan Airlines counter but remains a sly measure below the 50 pound allotment. The bag bulges with items requested and items required to make the next month on Baranof Island comfortable. Without surprise, I will find the TSA placard acknowledging their search of my belongings when I unzip the bag several hours and many thousands of miles later. Maybe the polenta or the jar of pesto or the packets of cumin, coriander, and turmeric have piqued their security curiosity. Or perhaps the smell of coffee beans seeping from the canvas calls to them. My cache also includes lemons, ginger, apples, beans and the specially requested whipped cream. Continue reading

Reliable Connections

IMG_3626There are many news items from an island town in Alaska that are not typically heard down south. Each spring residents are reminded to bring in bird feeders to reduce bear trouble. Citizens are asked to dispose of animal carcasses properly so as to not interfere with airport traffic. And this week, there have been reports on how to handle the latest issue: limited internet connection. I imagine Silicon Valley has never had a week where the ability to draw up Google or retrieve email messages has taken ten minutes or not happened at all. Continue reading

The Quiet Awe in Life


Cross Trail PhotoThere are places in our lives that we can point back and think: That was truly a magical time. That was a sincerely special place. That was an incredible evening. Occasions, celebrations, and milestones mark the path along our lives where we see the unique moments that make this life spectacular. Continue reading

Tulum: The Food Issue

Note to reader: The following blog contains content not suitable for all audiences: There is Food Porn and descriptive language; however, the word yummy has been restricted from use.

Raw Pad Thai

The sound of corn tortillas sizzling on the large grills couples with the smell of coconut oiled vegetables and meat frying. The hot sun encourages the passerby to stop and soak in the production. This is Mexico; the Mexico I expect with fish tacos, lime squeezed ceviche, burritos stuffed with spinach, peppers, and sauce that drips down your elbows. But after a few weeks in the Yucatan Peninsula it is not the traditional fare that draws me in and and makes me dizzy with options as blinding as the brightly painted buildings. Rather, I am entranced by creative cuisine that combines ingredients dating back to Mesoamerican times with practices more associated with the new age health scene. A combination that catapults food from tradition to transcendence. Continue reading

Nuevo Amigos

Spending the better part of the past year traveling, I can declare with guarded authority that the people met along the way make the journey memorable. Fellow travelers often share fascinating stories to capture my attention but it is decidedly the locals who make a place come alive. 

In Tulum, Mexico, while I pull off the strenuous job of resort yoga instructor, I have met an engaging lady from Germany who may desire to seek adventure more than me. In her young life, she can easily name two dozen countries she has visited. Her day job as a flight attendant helps make this happen but it is rather an envious accomplishment. There have been Canadians, Brits, and two from Downunder and I am intrigued to learn how they found Tulum. Most come for the yoga and others for a quieter alternative to Cancun or Playa de Carmen. 

But it is Benjamin who each morning serves me negro cafe and fills me with stories and descriptions of local ways and culture. It is definitely his bright smile and eagerness to fortify my Mexican education that leads me to Canopia Cafe each day. 

The first morning, Benjamin introduced me to the mamey fruit. “What is that,” I asked, pointing to the word on the smoothie menu–with all these yoga folks around, smoothies are as plentiful as cerviche. 

“Mamey. It is like tropical fruit.”




“No, no.”


“No, more like….hard.”

Hmmm… That did not really clear things up. 

“The skin is rough and brown. It is sweet, but not too sweet.” Benjamin goes on to add, “It is hard, so good for building. These are from mamey,” he says pointing to the cafe’s low wooden tables. 
My educational acumen falters. “You make tables from the fruit?”

“No,” he laughs at me. “The tree trunk is hard and good for building.”

“Aha!” I get it. Yet, I still do not know what it tastes like, but somehow I feel more informed. 

Later research describes the mamey as a fruit combining the flavors of pumpkin, sweet potato, and subtle flavors of almond, chocolate, honey, and vanilla. Are you kidding me? Why has this not made it on the front pages of haute cuisine? 

Another day I ask about the jungle. I imagine all these resorts and yoga studios have replaced miles and miles of jungle. In my environmentally concerned consciousness, I twitch at the uncomfortable reality of destruction while I sip on Benjamin’s house special kombucha. 

“So many trees gone, but not these,” he points to circular fanned fronds of a palm tree. It reminds me of the sun. “They cannot be cut. It’s what you say…” Benjamin looks upward to search for the word. 

The kombucha has apparently gone to my head and it takes a few minutes to arrive on the word: endangered. 

“Yes, endangered. It is special because it is provides protection from hurricanes. Very strong tree with deep roots.”

They are Chit Palms and Benjamin tells me chit is Mayan for hand. 

“When two chits are close together their roots will come together.” He intertwines his fingers to show me. “That makes them even stronger, by coming together. It is beautiful, isn’t it?”

I agree. He conveys the poetry of two palm trees relying on one another for stability. I have come to understand that Benjamin is teaching me more than tidbits of Mexican plants and culture. He is teaching me ways to see the world. 

As Halloween approaches, I see the American influence hanging in the supermarket where costumes are on display. It is the day after Halloween that I associate with Mexico. Dia de muertos heightens my curiosity but I readily admit, I know nothing about Mexican holidays. I have heard of this one and have been investigating since my arrival. 

My bus driver, Gregory–which sounds a lot more exotic when pronounced with a Mexican accent, tells me he will spend the day with his family. His cousins will gather, his mother will cook and they will have a special meal. His favorite dish is a large tamale filled with beef and pork and special pepper sauce. His eyes twinkle as he describes the sweet corn cake his mother will make.

As Benjamin polishes glasses, freeing them of the dust and ocean salt, I ask him about dia de muertos. Benjamin has already told me about his nine and fifteen year old sons. He takes them bike riding on his day off and they go to the beach to play ball. I expect him to tell me of a big family gathering, how special the day is and how perhaps he will partake in a traditional family meal, visit the graves of loved ones, or attend church or a festival.  
“Yes, many people will fix meals of the people who have died. They put out their favorite beers and maybe toast with tasty jam.”

Benjamin gives a short laugh and I do as well. I try to reconcile the idea of a favorite meal being beer and toast which sounds more like my Midwestern version of cookies and milk for Santa.  

I probe Benjamin to find out if he will prepare anything for those who have past away. 

“No, I do not do this. When I forget my mother, when I forget my father then they die. But they are not dead because everyday their spirit is with me. I hear their voices. I see the work they did. I feel them here,” Benjamin taps his chest with his open palm. “Their spirit lives here and I am not without.”

Benjamin’s sweet and sincere honesty captures a piece of my soul and it is a gift to be reminded that I too carry with me, in my heart, those who have passed away. In a small way, cultures intertwine likes roots of the chit palm and I feel an assurance that wherever I go, I am never alone.  

What’s Calling You?


Early morning on the porch. The time of day the stoop invites me to sit and take in the last vestiges of the night and welcome the first flecks of dawn. Today the train whistle blew. Nothing new. A familiar city noise. But its tone was strong. It seemed to be calling.

Calling me? Continue reading

Alaska…the Skookum State

Mt. Edgecumbe
Mt. Edgecumbe on Kruzof Island, Alaska

Rhubarb plants swell in weed-like proportion with leaves capable of sheltering small mammals. The spring flowers continue to materialize days short of the summer solstice. Lilacs burst. Skunk Weed pole vaults from most every ditch. Flowering salmon berries promise sweet harvests ahead while the Sitka Spruce hangs with new buds inviting culinary harvesting.

Sitka is not in the part of Alaska where melons grow to the size of hot air balloons, nor where one cabbage is large enough to feed an entire village; however, it is a place where solid growth abounds both in nature and in the people. Continue reading